ALCHEMY

I woke up at 4:00 AM and my first thought was work! I’ve been trying to limit only 25% of my time and energy on work so that I will have the rest of the pie for more productive activities, say, loafing around the farm, meditation and yoga by the beach, reading How To Read the Tarot, biking to Vegan Food House…. being, loving. But this week, I think I was actually working for 8 hours a day! Would you believe that!!! This can't be a good sign.

To top that, the week has been stressful not because of the load but because of this straight-from-Uni- guy I am working on a certain project with. It’s not so much that he doesn’t have any idea what’s going on, I’m cool with that. But the I-know-it-all stance he takes really gets to me. But then again, I am sure it’s just an aspect of myself I am seeing in him. It’s not him, it’s me. Just a matter of looking harder and seeing my refelection and learning the lesson to be learned, etc, etc. I know I have to transmute this. It would help if he is a little humble though, or is that asking too much from the universe?


To help me transmute all this density, I’ve decided to take up on gardening today. I think planting is the best alchemy work. Our waste (Carbon Dioxide, Nitrogen) are plant’s food. With the use of light (photosynthesis) they are able to transmute this waste into the most beautiful things - fruits, flowers – in the world. Maybe I can learn a thing or two from them when it comes to transmuting denser energies. Plus it's about time I help out in the garden, been here for two months and I think I watered the plants a total of three times? I can't wait to connect with the earth and the devas too, I've always felt a connection with that world. I think when I landed here on Earth the first time, I took an elemental form before I actually chose a human form. Will see what the plants have to say…

On a lighter note on alchemy, I am having a blissful time transforming this budding love I am feeling for you-know-who into something higher, purer, unconditional. The attraction/connection I am feeling towards him is insanely strong, in a good way! The past days, I would find myself smiling whenever I remember an anecdote he said or whenever a picture of him flashes in my mind. My housemate PI will hear me giggling while doing the laundry or watering the plants. (He knows, he actually refers to him as my luvy duvy. Cute.) At night, I fall asleep drawing a picture of me sitting on his lap while I run my fingers through his hair, planting a little kiss on his nape, on his cheeks, snuggling on his chest, for as long as I want, feeling his heartbeat.. Whenever I come into that space, everything is all right. It feels like this world, this universe is a great place to live.

In this path to oneness, I am learning that even if some things do not manifest into physicality, it doesn’t mean it's not real. Actually reality is a non-issue for me anymore. I am just happy to be gifted by the Universe with his presence. I must be on the right track if I can attract someone as evolved and pure as him into my space. He inspire me to transmute myself higher and higher into a being of light, And I am just happy to have nice conversations with him, share music, stare at his photos, and of course, the wild passionate love making followed by post-lovemaking joints on astral plane. Now that’s not asking too much from the Universe.