Awakening

There comes a time in your life when you finally get it … When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out “ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on.” And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new perspective.….This is your awakening.

You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something or someone to change, or for happiness safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren’t always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
So you begin making your way through the “reality of today” rather than holding out for the “promise of tomorrow.” You realize that much of who you are and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a result of all the social conditioning you’ve received over the course of a lifetime. And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about :

- how you should look and how much you should weigh,
- what you should wear and where you should shop,
- where you should live or what type of car you should drive,
- who you should sleep with and how you should behave,
- who you should marry and why you should stay,
- the importance of bearing children or what you owe your family,

Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin re-assessing and re-defining who you are and what you really believe in. And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect ,and that not everyone will love appreciate or approve of who or what you are… and that’s OK… they are entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a “perfect 10″…. Or a perfect human being for that matter… and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head or agonizing over how you compare. And, you take a long look at yourself in the mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.

And, you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” hungry for your next fix, a new dress, another pair of shoes or looks of approval and admiration from family, friends or even strangers who pass by. Then you discover that it is truly in “giving” that we receive, and that the joy and abundance you seek grows out of the giving. And you recognize the importance of “creating” and “contributing” rather than “obtaining” and “accumulating.”

And you give thanks for the simple things you’ve been blessed with, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about - a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, the freedom of choice and the opportunity to pursue your own dreams.

And you begin to love and to care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-destructive behaviors, including participating in dysfunctional relationships. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and exercising. And because you’ve learned that fatigue drains the spirit and creates doubt and fear, you give yourself permission to rest. And just as food is fuel for the body, laughter is fuel for the spirit and so you make it a point to create time for play.

Then you learn about love and relationships - how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally, and that not everyone will always come through… and interestingly enough, it’s not always about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place blame for the things that were done to you or weren’t done for you. And you learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions it spawns - anger, jealousy and resentment.

You learn how to say “I was wrong” and to forgive people for their own human frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with confidence and grace. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake. Then you learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to Say NO. You learn that you don’t know all the answers, it’s not your job to save the world and that sometimes you just need to Let Go.

Moreover, you learn to look at people as they really are and not as you would want them to be, and you are careful not to project your neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships, and that that not everyone can always love you the way you would want them to. So you stop appraising your worth by the measure of love you are given. And suddenly you realize that it’s wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet “your” standards and expectations. You learn that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without conditions or limitations. And you learn what it means to love. So you stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that “alone” does not mean “lonely” and you begin to discover the joy of spending time “with yourself” and “on yourself.”

Then you discover the greatest and most fulfilling love you will ever know - Self Love. And so it comes to pass that, through understanding, your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.
Moving along, you begin to avoid Toxic people and conversations. And you stop wasting time and energy rehashing your situation with family and friends. You learn that talk doesn’t change things and that unrequited wishes can only serve to keep you trapped in the past. So you stop lamenting over what could or should have been and you make a decision to leave the past behind. Then you begin to invest your time and energy to affect positive change. You take a personal inventory of all your strengths and weaknesses and the areas you need to improve in order to move ahead, you set your goals and map out a plan of action to see things through.

You learn that life isn’t always fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve, and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God… but merely a random act of fate.

And you stop looking for guarantees, because you’ve learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you’ll learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time - FEAR itself. So you learn to step right into and through your fears, because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophesy and you learn to go after what you want and not to squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending doom.

Then, YOU LEARN ABOUT MONEY… the personal power and independence it brings and the options it creates. And you recognize the necessity to create your own personal wealth. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. And a sense of power is born of self-reliance. And you live with honor and integrity because you know that these principles are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build your life. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful opportunity and exciting possibility. Then you hang a wind chime outside your window to remind yourself what beauty there is in Simplicity.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you FAKE a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

A word about the Power of Prayer: In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed, not for the answers to my prayers or for material things, but for God to help me find the strength, confidence and courage to persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.

Remember this:- You are an expression of the almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you. Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you!(this article is not mine! I found it in Internet) ...Nice Thursday,Liberty !...I wish you that with every day,with every moment you'll grow: grow in awareness,in love,in ability to enjoy life,in wisdom,in truth,in health,in good friends,in happiness ,in success...Michael

from Michael, multiply friend

Before Sunset

"It was for you just a one night thing but you were much more to me. Just so you know."

Vudu

My German Brothers

Kukuks

“Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.”

Prep

Message from my teacher

This is to give co-light worksers an idea of how we might all create synergy that results in a multiplier effect. Synergy is when you put several people together and come up with an energy greater than the sum of the energy of the inviduals added together.

The purpose of this email is to begin to articulate structures and protocol from the existing landscape of the vast Inner Dance community for the various individuals and groups around the world to synergize with each other in bringing the gift of Inner Dance healing to the world. This is by no means absolute, and are mere things one might more easily see high up in the air on a plane from Palawan to Manila.

The synergy will be able to support others who wish to access the group process to build on marketing, financial and healing support but retaining its individual energy and identity. Each part of the system will act as independent core systems that will take it upon themselves to be Sources of Energy, self-sustainable and respectful of the planet and those in it.

Status:

Pi and Daniw have been spending the earlier part of 2009 to creating self-sustainability in Palawan and Singapore with occasional work done in Manila.

In the Visayas, Marwin has done the same in Cebu, despite that the Inner Dance presence isn’t as strong in the province as it was in 2008. This is an opportunity to clear the process of blocks on grounding principles and areas where we might be able to synergize the healing work done in other areas in the Visayas and Mindanao. Also in the Visayas, LJ has succeeded in making a difficult yet fruitful move to Bohol and is now thriving as a resident within land we envision to become a self-sustainable community space focused on gardening and healing. We have managed to contribute financial and healing energy to assisting out partner Joe Travero to acquire property there. At the moment, LJ is running simple programs for training local students in meditation, healing, yoga and raw food.

In Palawan, work has been done to create a semi-permanent healing space that can later assist in funding a more permanent and dedicated healing space in Iratag in land owned by Agnes Prieto, which a permanent British partner will be helping to set up. The person in charge of the province at the moment is Chato. Chato is studying different options in tying up the space with a Manila group that can help market the space as a venue for healing and renewal. She has also been able to begin to relate with the community there, beginning with the simple help of sponsorships, providing simple livelihood for the rural neighbors as well as give financial and educative support to the local kids. Right now, she is working again for her former employer, Ditchay Roxas, to become economically viable for helping some kids in the community as well as taking care of herself as she firmly establishes herself in the city. At the moment, Joemar Obejas is being considered as a resident healer (latter part of 2009) as well as another person from Baguio (Devindra who can act as resident healer-in training as well as running artist programs in the space). With chato, he/they will be running programs for the current influx of visitors who come to Bahay Kalipay for healing, art, warriorship (arnis), meditation and raw food. Another resident will be setting up a workspace and living space there, Jenny Cortes, who is very much into woodworking.

In Luzon, we have been studying many different options on creating self-sustainable land which can be developed for healing, planting and renewal. At the moment, Rosanna Escudero is going through the motions of setting up a community space in Bicol which will be tied up with other groups also interested in various technologies and modalities in spirituality, green consciousness and community living. We are considering coming up with more permanent systems integration of the work being done in Manila, tying up with a healing space that can devote regular space and schedules for Inner Dance workshops there. Starting with a retreat we are organizing in Tagaytay with an IT company, we are going to be meeting with a spiritual corporate practitioner who specializes in change integration management, in possibly coming up with programs for corporate accounts. Our Filipino sponsors in Singapore are also much interested in helping with the Bicol community project and are considering helping us to set it up along with the Iratag space in Palawan.

The vision is basically to bring the resonance of this gift in its simpler and more original forms beyond the successful community work already being done in Singapore, to other countries in Asia, America and Europe. The idea is that now that the community spaces and the healing programs are slowly being established in Palawan, Bohol and Bicol, that we are simultaneously beginning to bring the gift abroad. Once the interest spurs people to visit the Philippines, we can do higher level long term training and experiential work in these places, particularly on raw food, community work, organic gardening and simple living.

As LJ in Cebu, Chato in Palawan, Joemar as support for Palawan for now, Marwin in Cebu, Rosie in Manila and Bicol, Lee (Singapore), and Jen (Penang, Malaysia) work on core community processing in the existing work areas mentioned, Pi and Daniw will be traveling to San Francisco with healer Monica Santos, to Hong Kong with Ruby, to Canada with Kreisha Oro, England with Nick Smith, and Elodie Brunet in Paris in order to begin the work there. Once the spaces are readier, starting with the existing programs in Bahay Kalipay in Puerto Prinsesa and Kaliapy Beach in Northern Palawan, and our tieups in Tagaytay and Sagada, we will be redirecting our workshop focus in Bohol and Sagada.

By the early part of next year, we should have been able to train people within the Inner Dance Community for Bohol, Palawan and Bicol to co-run the spaces and to give travel opportunities for Joemar and Marwin in Asia (after a dedicated Singapore Inner Dance Center has been set-up). These two guys are the ones in the Philippines who’ve taken themselves to task in becoming healers and trainers of the Inner Dance energy in its primal form for the past years. Pi and Daniw will be spending more time in the Philippines as support to the spaces being run by LJ, Chato, Rosie in the provinces.

As we've seen the universe do its work, none of these are supposed to be rushed, even though they must be accelerated. There is a mistake in simply looking at these functionally, sometimes making us forget that these things are happening not as a cause, but as an effect of the little creative things we do to pay tribute to the spirit within us all. That we are all doing it at the same time is helping the group process, seemingly unconnectedly, but that's merely how things work. As She through Maui once said, I am you, he is she, you are Us, and so on. The work is done in solitude, and the time comes when we have to work together, while maintaining that solitude. Keep true to the inner work we are all being taught now. What you are going through aren't by chance, they are your specific lessons, and you are meant to be groping around in the dark, later to find the bright spots, not through me, the Inner Dance, any book out there, or any guru who will save you. But by the power of your own free will to do the difficult lightening work with the first energy that comes from your solar plexus, the fire in your belly, your discipline, and your inner warrior.

As you are finding out, these things are happening only when you put your energy into it. Choice plays large part in it. Consider yourself your core energy, with your core principles. Noone is going to take your lead. For these to take fruit, you will have to be creative, determined, and focused on becoming core energy. Source of Life. Create your own programs, people. Be the source of light, backed with the proper energy and discipline to do so. The valuable time given to us to prepare is almost over. The time to work will have to come one time or another. The time to grow up. The time to act what you have always dreamed about but cower when it is right there, right in front of you.

It is called the higher self.

And there is no other time, right Now, but to be it.

Love,,

Pi

Raw food, people! Don't procrastinate. There is no such thing as the unobserved self. The spirit sees all heavy and lighter truths.

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I'm lonely....

I haven't felt lonely in a long long while...

I miss Gerard.

I miss having to hug him in bed.

I miss him I miss him I miss him.

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